Saturday, January 30, 2010

In a sealed space
I seal myself
Away from the hurt
One will ever feel

In a sealed space
I close the lid tight
Away from harm
Welcoming the peace

To be the air in this space
Slowly sip through
Gently and carefully
With love and warmth

With the perfect timing
And right ingredients
Be part of the space
Keep me safe and filled.

In a Sealed Space

In a sealed space
I seal myself
Away from the hurt
One will ever feel

In a sealed space
I close the lid tight
Away from harm
Welcoming the peace

To be the air in this space
Slowly sip through
Gently and carefully
With love and warmth

With the perfect timing
And right ingredients
Be part of the space
Keep me safe and filled.

Another Friday

Yesterday, the 29th January,2010, Foong Kae Chiam officially turns 21! woohoo.... Three big cheer for her!!!=)

And the beautiful thing was what we did for her last night. Being stuck in uni, we didn't have much choice but we managed to get her a cake. We shared the cake with her and the last and best part of it,smeared cake all over her especially her face and hair. Haha.... But the birthday girl wasn't the only victim. Everyone else present was also a victim excluding the photographer. Esther,Pui Shi, Wei Zhen,Pei Yee, GG, Sing Ying had cream and cake either on their hair,clothings or face too....Oh,I wasn't excluded too. Lol...We made such a mess and we had to mopped the floor too. We poured body shampoo over the floor to remove the oiliness. Esther and I felt like penguins making our ways while cleaning up. Haha...Hope the birthday girl enjoyed herself. =)

Later last night,I was chatting with a coursemate over msn. And the topic of not doing what ours friends are doing like clubbing came up. Let's see. Most of my friends goes clubbing especially those who are studying in more happening cities like KL. And some goes clubbing back home too. I don't no matter where am I. I don't know whether it is because I'm a girl who listens to her dad of is it just because I don't want to. So far,I've never thought of going. i guess it is just a matter of personal principle. If you want to try it,you'll still go even if the whole world object. If you don't,you just won't.

I had an inorganic chemistry lecture on thursday. And it happens that the lecturer was sharing. One of the many things she said was about being wiser,you'll see and know more things. Sometimes even more than what you should know. And the world will then be scarier.

This point kinda hit me in the right nerve.

I've felt that the world doesn't seem so nice after I grew up.

And I want to be a four-year-old again.

with the big,big eyes,smile on the lips and most of all, an innocent face.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Today

Ah,time really seems to fly....I'm not sure whether I should be happy or not about it. If time passes more quickly,soon it'll be time to go home. But if time passes more quickly,it means that the datelines for my assignments and whatever work assigned to me will also be just around the corner.

Hmm,I'm not sure which is it that I want to happen.

Today is a busy day. I had an hour of statistics lecture,did some analytical tutorial question with the help of coursemates,attended the Dean's list award ceremony and escaped from the Majlis Syarahan Peringkat Kebangsaan I was supposed to attend. Just a waste of time to me.

The Dean's list award ceremony was kinda lame. Altogether,my course had 11 people who were on the list. And all of us are chinese. Haha....They were supposed to give us a cert but apparently,there were some problems so they gave us a piece of A4 paper with our name and our pointer stated on it. Lame.... Gave us a bag as well,with a pen and a notebook and a weird looking thing as well. But I am just glad I made it into Dean's list for the first semester. This semester seems tougher but I'm not going to give up.I'll have to keep trying. I'll reach for the rainbow at the end of the day. I will. I have this idea that this 'kiasuness' has been planted in me since the first day I become a Teresian. LOL...

I've got technical writting test tomorrow on essay writting and a class activity for statistics. I think the class I hate tne most will be Islamic Institution. So much for asking non muslims to actually take up this subject. I've gone for about 5 weeks of lecture and I do not have a single idea what the crap am I studying for this subject. I hate it.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Thoughts

I'm supposed to be doing the tutorial questions for analytical chemistry. But here I am,tying away infront of the laptop. I wonder whether I'm doing something beneficial in the sense that I'm practising my writting skills. Or perhaps I'm procrastinating,in the sense that I know I should be working on those problems.

Deep down in my heart,I know which is it.

I just refuse to start working on those questions.

And apart from those questions,I still have plenty to do or should I say,plenty that I SHOULD do. To do and should do are two different things. "To do" seemed like I was forced to complete the task. "Should do" in my interpretation is when I tell myself a mission that I wish to accomplish and I will do so willingly.

Then again,I wonder if I'll ever do enough. I wonder whether what I do is all that I should do. I wonder if the things I did were done well enough. I wonder if all these while the things I did were done with all the capabilities I had. I wonder if I've pushed myself hard enough. Did I make use of all the gifts God showered upon me? When I meet God at the end of my life will I be able to say,"Thank you God,for I've used all the gifts blessed"?

I used to think that I'm tho only one who wonders about things like this. But as I grow older and wiser(I hope),I realized that I'm not alone. Everyone seems to have a thing or two in their mind. Some wished to get better results,some wished to be richer.

That's when I realise why the word balanced exist.

I realise that life will never go the way we want it to be. It doesn't matter how meticulous were one when they planned,it is just not meant to be so. Fault does not fall on anyone nor God. We were so unique that we will never be satisfied with what we have but continue to strive for more. Yet the most important things is not what is the result we obtained nor how much money we can earn. It is how happy we are as we walk the path of life.

Happiness is something we choose for ourselves. No one else can give you happiness nor can anyone steal happiness from you once you found it. Life has it's own pebbles and rocks but if one continue to be tough and walk down the road,you'll find what you want.

This still doesn't stop me from wondering about my capabilities.

And I'm tired of it.
Everyday of My Life

Everyday of my life
I dream, I wonder
I think, I ponder.

Everyday of my life
The sun shines
Or the rain comes
So as the path of my life
Changes as the weather

Everyday of my life
A blast I hope to have
A smile I want to leave
Beautiful memories planted
Forever the best day.

Everyday of my life
Angels will stay
Forever guarding me
Forever guiding me
Leading my life
The fullest it can be

Everyday of my life,
I can.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

English

Too soon fri has turned into sat morning. In approximately 8 hours,I'll be on my way to Kuantan. My purpose? To sell the tickets for UMP's CNY '10 dinner tickets. So much for a free saturday.

I think my coursemate went home. Lucky for that person. I misssss home too,sometimes. But I can still cope with it. I think the thing I missed most are my english speaking friends. Don't get me wrong here. The friends I have met are great and wonderful. They are part of the backbones supporting me,no doubt bout that.

Too bad,too few of them speak real english.

And I missed the bunch of them who did back home.

I just can't deny that.

Try as much as I could( I really try to put in an effort,mind you.) I just cannot and I really mean it, get used to speaking mandarin the whole time. I'm a banana but the standard of my mandarin is still enough to get my point across. Perhaps there are time,actually countless times where I've been the laughing stock but I still can manage a proper conversation. I feel odd speaking mandarin but I don't have a choice,do I?

This seems to be the situation where I'm only left with two choices. One,speak mandarin no matter how funny I felt and I'll be rewarded with lots of friends. Two,remain a total banana and not speak a single mandarin. I'll have to be a 'katak di bawah tempurung' and live in my own world then. Looking at those two options,I'll still choose number 1.

Then again,my english isn't perfect either. It is far from perfect. Only people here will think that my english is good. I get this feeling that my english have deteriorated due to frequent and loong contact with people who speak mandarin their whole life.

Most of the time,they do direct translations from mandarin to english. Most of the time,the translation turns out funny too. Sometimes,I have to translate their english back into mandarin to fully understand a sentence. Just fancy,a direct translation of "he can't let go of her" in mandarin can be "he can't put her down". I'm not being mean,just trying to show that there is a difference in the structure of sentences in different languages.

I understand that these people (actually my great friends) have been chinese educated. They cannot be blame for their lack of proficiency in the language they have not used much. I'm just trying to make my point that this is one of the things I have to get use to being here. Maybe in 4 years time,I'll be able to write chinese characters too. =)

Friday, January 22, 2010

Friday is the day where I've got only 2 hours of technical writting class. Friday is the day where I'm most free. The day when I should be in the peak of my mood. That should lead to only one word. HAPPY.

But I don't feel so. I don't feel excited with my day. I don't feel excited with what I can do today.

I'm not exactly unhappy but i just feel there is something I can't let go. Yet I dunno what it is. I dunno what is this thing that shouldn't be in me and sucking all my good moods away from me. I want myself back!

Any idea anyone?

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Thursday happens to be the only day I have 8 am class. And i still don't like it. I went to class on time but the one who was late happened to be the lecturer herself. There and then,I've decided to go to class later next week. Lol... In today's technical writing class,we were asked to write an essay to compare and contrast ourselves and a partner. I did the writing and truth to be said,it has been quite a while since i last wrote. I'm happy with the outcome though. I think I'll post the essay as well, for remembrance sake. And I received a good news too. I won't be having anymore friday class since it has been shifted to tuesday. Yippie!!!=) Perhaps the thurs afternoon statistics class can be shifted away too. Then I'll have a free thursday afternoon as well. Oh well,i shouldn't be dreaming too much and just be grateful that I no longer have friday class.



Right after that,I had Inorganic chemistry class. As usual,she was impressive. Today's quote is "mathematicians calculate that 1+1=2 but chemist observed that it is 2 straightaway. Chemistry is observe science" I'm still impressed after 5 weeks of going to her class. I hope I'll be able to do well for this subject. Not going to give up that easily.



This is the essay I wrote for technical writing compare and contrast:

" Friendship has no survival values,rather it is one of those things that gives value to survival". A quote once said by famous philosopher cum writer C.S Lewis. To a great extent, a majority of the human population will find this true.Great distance is not a barrier, it just depend on when and how two souls meet. These two souls named Ellie and Sing Ying met in July 2009 and a great friendship was then borned.

Although every human is blessed and unique,there are still some similarities between these two souls. Ellie and Sing Ying are both 20 years old. Both of them have average height, meaning they are neither very tall nor very short. Besides that, Ellie and Sing Ying are currently reading Industrial Chemistry at Universiti Malaysia Pahang.

We all came from God, but due to differences in our upbringing and environment, differences still occur among mankind. In the case of Ellie and Sing Ying, Ellie prefers to have long hair,often tying it in a pony tail while Sing ying maintains a short hair style. Besides that, Ellie if from sarawak, located at East Malaysia but Sing ying is from Perak located at West Malaysia. Apart from that,Ellie is very talkative never running out of things to say. while Sing ying falls into the shy category,prefering to keep a low profile of herself.

As a conclusion, Ellie and Sing ying are similar yet different in many ways. God creates the best artworks and one of them is us. If we can learn to appreciate our differences and similarities,great friendship will continue to live.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

It has been awhile since i wrote here...well,quite many things had happened but I'll just write bout the interesting things.=)

For the first time in my life,I went and successfully donated blood yesterday. It was held at Block W. I went with one of my best friend cum coursemate,Foong Qian also known as guinea pig. it was her fourth time to donate blood. It was a long quee. we had to went through many stations to determine that we are fit enough to donate. It didn't take a long time,just about 15 minutes to donate 350ml of blood. felt so proud of myself after donating. Lol.. Anyways,I wasn't planing to go for the Islamic Institution lecture after that. But my group was supposed to present on the topic,"consensus of opinion". So, right after that,the both of that went for class. Oh,they gave us a certificate too.=)

Today is an interesting day too. My analytical chemistry lecturer actually cried while delivering her lecture. I think that she thinks that we are a bunch of arrogant, noisy students who don't listen to her. And we don't give her much response too. However, i think that she is also the one with problems. For one thing,no matter how many times she tried to explain her teachings in Bm or english,we just don't understand.

At 5 pm just now,I went for my second fitness class. Sing Ying, Mei Yoong and I were the first three to arrive. We waited for about 20 minutes for the rest to arrive. and then, we proceeded to the empty space at Block W to do some jogging,stretching,push ups and also sit ups. I'm glad that I, a person whose stamina is of negative value survived the class.

Later,i will have to attend some briefing for laboratory safety. After so many sessions of identical kind of briefing,I'm just amazed they still have more things so say.

Monday, January 4, 2010

Today is the second week of the secong semester. And as expected,we didn't have a 'real' class yet today. Most of my friends felt that it was a waste of time to wake up so early. but what can we do? nothing... it was up to the lecturers whether they wanted to come to class and teach. But do we,the students had the choice to choose whether to go or not? I guess the is is N-O...
Oh well,maybe that's why we are called students. Perhaps one day,one day in the future i'll be a lecturer. And I can(it doesn't mean I will) do the same to my students.