She is confused.

She knows what she wants-or so she thinks.
She's determined to not lose out to that brainy one-but deep in her heart she just have to admit, that one is just too brainy.
She wants to work harder-but she doesn't know where else to add up.
She knows she should stay strong and-despite the fact she feels like a little girl and she doesn't want to grow up
She knows she shouldn't be so close- but she really like the comfort given.

She is confused. And she miss it, a lot. Perhaps a lot more than what she expected.
She tried to add the distance, it is so hard.

But she knows pretty well, she is thinking of sleep.